I AM A COOL PERSON?

Do you all think that i am a cool person? i meant, am i a quiet and unfriendly person?
i do think so. i entered my first year foundation in UTAR. of course, the first time i went into the class, i nervous like hell. don't know why.i can't really getting a new friend by myself. Only when a people come and introduce himself or herself to me. The result, almost all my friend in utar are boys. hmm. girls? i know few. but the closest are sherry and my best friends(ex schoolmates). there is many assignments need to do..ARGHHHH!! that's why im too busy to write my blog. sometimes, i got a little bit of temptation to write my blog.then? ends up with facebook. LOL. sigh. i think im not friendly lo. im done with few survey.FIRST SIGHT OF ME. my friend says, i am cool but after know me, i am friendly=)hahaha. i think everything depends on fate. i do believe in fate.you and me and everybody, we met, be friend, is a fate. A DESTINY. there are so many exams in utar. sigh. now, one thing makes me worry. my attendance. sigh. skipped my tutorial general maths class the THIRD times. and my boyfriend seems like cant get a mc for me. GOSH. if i get barred,i will really upset and depress. My boyfriend? haha. his name is LING SHIH JIE. in love with him by first sight. he treated me very good. and he is quite handsome. but, BAD TEMPERED. same with me.that's why when we argue, war started. hope that i can make him to be mine. always=) need to do revision.

TRUTH

i think myself is a very stupid ppl.why i have such a foolish thinking.everytimes i trust him.i belive every single thing that he told me.i really belive that. yesterday.got ppl tell me again.something that broken hearted.mr.D got feeling on that girl.what de.could u feel what i felt that time?its really fed up.my friend still said.sat night he fetched her back.they kissed in the car and hugged.the moment he disappear from my sight.i got asked him where have he been.he said.ZERO DEGREE.what a good lier.he got come find me after club.cause i requested.he didnt reject.owh.that time my fren also said he dinner with her.i straight call him.he answered.i asked him.where is him and who's with him now.at first he says with fren and changed topic.finally.i asked.is it that girl?he admitted.i hang up the phone and thrown on bed.then.my fren took me went to tesco and cheered me up.thanks my fren.especially jing.she is my buddy that i ever had.same too sakai and chanel too.included wayne gua.i angry.because i care.i love him.why he dont even want to explain to me?i dont think its take much time for an explanation.i have the right to know that too.i told sunny about mr.D.sunny said he already knew it since the first time he date with me.from the face expression.everytimes.msgs made me emotional.what i can say is.IM SORRY.i dont meant to hurt sunny.i do love sunny.but not as deeper as him.i need to give up him already.both.i chosen to give up.single for a moment.let the time pass and everythings will get to be normal back.now.the most important thing is study.i cant disappoint my mummy.this weekend,i will be working at jusco for promoter carlsberg.part time for one month.no money.so need to work.i have no potential for my study.so,i need to work thrice hard to achieve.especially my critical thinking.love stuff just dump aside.i wont care it for now.maybe.but i will do my best not to think that.all i want just a person that i love the most and he suit me somemore care me.not much.a simple guy i also cant get.why?i cant wondering again.i met some new fren in my class.hmm.my assignment group members.assignment are too hard for me.under estimated.LOL.sigh.gonna die soon.update my blog next time.time to study=)and today i will be sleeping early.cause tomoro got class at 8 and i am lacked of sleep.

REUNION

5th JUN2010.that night my ex school mates reunion at dong kui.haha.and some rojak fren.at first we all went to K-TEN for dinner.and then.hahaha.go fok sing sit and ordered 6 bottle of carlsberg.big one la.all share money.cheap cheap.then got free gifts.six packs of cigREttes and two lighter.hoho.but the cigarette left two packs for me and jing only.LOL.at last.still got where to go lea?club la of course.hoho.happy la wey.long time didnt club with them.all crazy like hell especially our malay girl.CASANDRA.stand on the barroom bar table.followed by me.=D
hmm.my relation with new mr.D become normal back.like last time.sweet enough for me.that night he said fetch me back then ends up his bro fetched me home.LOL.anyway.after that he still got accompany me till he sleepy.he is the one who make my anger bigger and my laughter bigger.his little care already makes me happy=) but.he dont give me call him dear any more.i was thinking what i meant to him? a simple fren or close fren?i dont even know.i dont wanna ask.cause i dont want any problem created between me and him.anymore.no more.i feel coldness from him.i dont know.i dont want to think.letting go.as much as good.i am just a stupid girl who hurted in love

DE NEST

aiks.today went to kopitiam and reunion with my buddy'moon'.then went to yeolde english with amy,yong,brian, and boo.i ordered an egg sandwich.and its taste like shit.ewwww.while im eating.i look back and thats him!gosh.no appetite lor.then he went away.brian called him and he asked brian to club at de nest.at first he ask brian whether i got go or not.brian say no.arghh.he dont wish me to go huh???we all decided to go de nest then.luckily my jing at there with last time clubbing fren.owh.such a awfuul night.ken seng there.we stand there with amy,jing,wayne,brian,yong,him and envy ooi.kan seng come and wayne pushed me to hug him.oOo.i dint wish to.wayne daring me to hug me but no.i given a reason that i dont wanna be soooooo cheap so i dint go hug him.wayne says im scared.i admitted.i know.wayne just want me to give him see that got ppl hug me and make him jealous.but.will him?i dont think so.then he dance tecktonic.hmm..VERY YENG!!im not the only one who said that.same to amy and jing too.thats is one of the reason why i love him so much.just now.the feelings comes again.arghh.ken seng kept on hugging me and i feel shit!!!!!i hate it lo.fuck off la.that stupid wayne la.ask him hug me for what??no more water jo.give that ken took all away.ish.sigh.misssss himm alotsssss.fan jin.they thought im a person that easy to love someone.means.PLAYGIRL.hey.they dont know what happened.never mind.im choosing the one who love me the most is it more worth than choosing who i love the most?i dont know.anyway.now.im not the one who consider to choose who again.as he is gone.confused

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY

today is my buddy birthday. amy yap siew theng..whee~~anyway.i dont think she had a good celebration for her birthday this year.sigh.i know one.so tonight gonna buy her a birthday cake.hahaha.hope she will be happy a bit.althought me and amy just close not long ago.she is a nice person.can mix one.hmmm..something weird happen.he cant get off of my mind.im an useless person.trying to forget him.need a lots of time.while with my sunny boy.i cant stop thinking him.everything he do just keep me reminding him.are sunny is just a replacement of him?i dont know.everything cant get back as normal like last month.just can be a normal friend like we used to be when at club.can you fall for me again?the days of letting you go are hard to me.changing myself from one day to one day

MAY

this month i felt so suck.bad luck never get off from me.many things happened and i feel shit.i argue with him and now.he is avoiding me.what now?sigh.the first week i have been argued with him.same with the following weeks.and then.i lost my new phone.just bought not enough one month.i dropped it.the same day,i found out he flirt with a girl.she told me.the next thing was my facebook account and msn gave someone hacked.damn.i dont know guy or girl la.but it said hate me.am i an irritating person?and yesterday.he fetch a girl to club.i dont like it.but he still fetching her with the reason of "PROMISE".fine.and now i felt that he is avoiding me.

he promised me.he wont flirt other girls again.but will he?i dont know.i believe in him.i trust him.because i love him.he dont want to couple.i respect him.one day he says to me:"i put my family at the first place,friends second and girlfriend the last". but.yesterday.i asked him to fetch me.he said.cannot cause need to fetch that girl.i very angry.i cried.i told him i dont like.he rather fetch her also dont fetch me.friend more important than me?but.she is a girl.please.i know we re not together.perhaps,u should care about my feeling too.everyone persued me.please let it go.im letting.it's hard.i can see him online at fb.but i cant see him on his msn.what does it means?he really dint open it or blocked me? haha.i found a joke.that girl says to me.he not the first time fetch her back home.its really funny.sigh.i dont know la.fan jin.please god.get me out of here!i feel like dying.the girl told me she starting to like him.will them wont have any relation after i went to kampar?can u bet?

anyway,i hurt someone.someone thats really treat me good with all his heart.i accepted him.at first,i want to forget the other one and together with him.but the feeling just weird.not the same.finally.i broke up with him.because my guilty become more and more.i need sometimes.perhaps,i will accept him back someday.

IM NEW=)

This is my first time im start blogging... actually i dont know how to create.. but i got so much things to say in my heart...I will continue blogging..haha..XDalthought i got no time to online.. i will take some time to do so..