BACK TO 25/6/2010 AND ALL IS OVER

merry christmas everyone.
what i was happened today is out of what i can expected.
its more worse to spend myself for this lonely christmas.
what i was fear had happened.
friend said, he with a girl now.
my heart was like broke into half.
its feeling aching again.
i thought our love is true,
and its hard for us to forget.
my thought is really wrong.
so fast,
you can find a new one.
all the phrases :
"i love you baby joey"
"i miss you"
"i wont leave you"
are just a lie.
its true that your friend said that neither you nor your friends will care about me.
i dont mind your friends' influencing issue
what i am care about is ur issue.
25/6/2010
our memories is still very clear in my mind.
i used to mark everyday in our calendar.
i just wonder,
how could u so easily forgotten all the things that we experienced.
and moved on with another girl.
the excuses you told me, you want to be single.
LIAR
i met you in cafeteria and the feeling of our first meeting with you is still fresh.
we love in first sight.
for you, i gave up sunny boy.
a great future for me.
the first time we touch,hug or kiss i still remember.
the first time of the movie-toy story3
the first date at ghany.
the first drama we watched together-tvb drama
both of us in love so fast,
no longer,
we were love to spend our time together every minutes and second
the time we walked back from bash party,
the environment is too romance for us.
u holding my hand and said "i love you joey"
i am totally so into it.
the jokes we talked.
the first argument-i walked away and when the time you get back home, that is the first time i see you punch the wall. and then you told me, you cant lose me and pls me to forgive you. afterwards you promised me you will changed ur behavior.
the most touched sms-you sent me a general report.inside there you stated that you proud of yourself cause not getting 0 for maths quiz. you knew i am clever and you promised me to study hard.
the first time we cried together-that time i was disappointed of myself cause i think that i am not good for you. and you told me that your sis doesnt like me.but you were not willing to let me go. both of us hugging each other and cried.
the first time we broke up-i was ready to take bus back to ipoh and we argued. i requested to break up. and when the time im back to kampar, my heart turning back to you as i want to appreciate you.
the time we officially broke up-we shouted at each other. i packed everything and back to my house. and you never stopped that.

after that, many sad things had happened. yes, i admitted i used wrong way to chase you back.
i threaten you.
i was so regret after that.
its happened.
and i know nothing can get you back again,
after semester2 started,
u treated me like a strangers.
ignored me.
until few days ago,
i only know that you are influenced by your best friend.
your friend dislike me.
they dont know me but you do.
i changed to be a good girl cause of you.
i really thanks for all the things that you had done for me.
the morning school ride, and pampers.
you were my boyfriend that i ever loved.
you are just too perfect for me.
and everything is happened just like a dream.
a very good dream that i dont wish to get up for the entire of my life.

and today they told me you have girlfriend,
i wish to go under the rain and stand until i get all wet at that moment.
i am tired already.
for being a joke to some of your friend
and loving you.
i burned and deleted all the photo.
i also removed your friend.
i wish my life will be better without you.
i dont know what i can react when i see you with your girlfriend.
but im sure after this i really will get to move on for my life.
happy with your own life and mine too.
turned back to the strangers that we dont know each other like before.
seriously ,i love you. ling shih jie.
thats the end. all the fifth month memories.
will be buried here forever.

12/12/2010

finally, i finished watch 义海厚情
for so long, i couldnt watch this drama cause im busy XD
i learned something from this drama.
hmmm.
their love is so 伟大.
but of course i know,
it is just a acting drama.
yet,
it let me know that,
love someone doesnt means that both needed to be together
love someone can be ten months or few years
the person that you love maybe will gone
but the memories already is forever in you.
so,
no matter it is one day or two months,
the memories we had together is already forever.
we love each other with our true heart and thats enough.
no regret.
therefore,
loving somebody doesn't means had to be together.
wait the time becomes mature
and it will be the time you can live with your partner for forever.