NEVER KNEW THE PAIN BEFORE YOU FALL DOWN

yea. im really a failure in love. a relationship. every times i cannot handle either any of that.i thought you will changed for me after all this things had happened. but. that even worst. i felt strange in you. you never treat me like before again. you dont love me anymore. now, you are just taking your responsibility as a boy friend and no love in it.everything seems like i am the one who forcing you to do all this things for me and love me too. finally, u took off your necklace. i cant believe it. i crying in the room and you just pretending nothing and continue your games. i know, everything cant go back we used to be already. no u-turn. all over. it;s over. i think when everything settle then i wont find him again. continue with my life. move on girl.u still young and u can find one who really match you. however, these philosophy i heard thousand times and yet, i still will hurt, cry and sad.concentrate on study. that's my responsibility as a student and mummy's daughter=) better day tomorrow.(hope so)

BIG SIGH

i was wondering. what life am i having now? good or bad? university life is harder than what i expected to be. every times i stalked people profile,those whom getting a new life here, i felt a little bit depressed. Because I'm envy that other people can get a better life than me. Their university life is interested. Can i involve in there? am i a kind of weird person? i always do think about that. my class, that gang seems very happy together. But me? alone? no friend? HEY! where is my gang? my gang can be known as weird gang. i think. my gang members not really like to chat with other people. i don't want to be like that. i very hope that next semester, i can have a better group of friends. Now, my life, only for my boy friend. LOL. no need gua. That's why i decided to stay back my room at 1219. As the longer time we face each other, the more chances to create arguments. AND. i had just finished argue with him. Why don't he care me a little bit more? We both have the same temper. That is BAD TEMPER. For him, i changed a lot. But can he change a bit? He is caring, he is good. At first, i think that he is perfect to me. i know. Nothing is perfect anyway. I only got a small little request. Anyway, it is a small test to me. i want he prove that he loves me and he will do everything for me. I want pull his underwear up at public ONLY. If this is the only way you can make me happy, why can't you just let me do it. I understand. It's kinda silly. But this can prove that you love me. DUH. i don't want to think much. i missed my old memories during form 4 and 5. never forget it. It's already midnight. I don't wish to skip any more class.so, gonna sleep and study well for my final test. JIA YOU!