this month i felt so suck.bad luck never get off from me.many things happened and i feel shit.i argue with him and now.he is avoiding me.what now?sigh.the first week i have been argued with him.same with the following weeks.and then.i lost my new phone.just bought not enough one month.i dropped it.the same day,i found out he flirt with a girl.she told me.the next thing was my facebook account and msn gave someone hacked.damn.i dont know guy or girl la.but it said hate me.am i an irritating person?and yesterday.he fetch a girl to club.i dont like it.but he still fetching her with the reason of "PROMISE".fine.and now i felt that he is avoiding me.
he promised me.he wont flirt other girls again.but will he?i dont know.i believe in him.i trust him.because i love him.he dont want to couple.i respect him.one day he says to me:"i put my family at the first place,friends second and girlfriend the last". but.yesterday.i asked him to fetch me.he said.cannot cause need to fetch that girl.i very angry.i cried.i told him i dont like.he rather fetch her also dont fetch me.friend more important than me?but.she is a girl.please.i know we re not together.perhaps,u should care about my feeling too.everyone persued me.please let it go.im letting.it's hard.i can see him online at fb.but i cant see him on his msn.what does it means?he really dint open it or blocked me? haha.i found a joke.that girl says to me.he not the first time fetch her back home.its really funny.sigh.i dont know la.fan jin.please god.get me out of here!i feel like dying.the girl told me she starting to like him.will them wont have any relation after i went to kampar?can u bet?
anyway,i hurt someone.someone thats really treat me good with all his heart.i accepted him.at first,i want to forget the other one and together with him.but the feeling just weird.not the same.finally.i broke up with him.because my guilty become more and more.i need sometimes.perhaps,i will accept him back someday.
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