SORRY

emotional heart that i could hardly concentrate on my study now. things happened. just like that again. did people treat you good because of you are their friends or because of they just wanna get you? so many question running on my head right now. did i really treat people wrongly? from now on, i will behave myself. i couldn't accept any more cases like this again. i treat them as best friend. that's all. what i given were just some hints and action. i knew whats that about. but did you really ask me, for what im thinking now? you care me, but did you care about my feeling too? i don't meant to hurt anyone. why couldn't it be the same even though if i said i don't love you? its not wrong for me to be loyal and love only one person. i really hope someone will understand my situation. its not fair for me to accept anyone if my heart still staying another person there. i really not good at this. rejecting people is too hard. i dont wanna lose my best friend. thats all. and maybe i am selfish. im sorry. i really dont know what i want for now. i just know that i will give up on him and find another one soon after i give him that present.i dont know what happen after that.but  if you really love me, give me some time. please dont leave me in a sudden. i wont promise 100% that i will come to you, but if you care me you wont treat me like a rubbish. i really used my heart to treat everyone of my friends. and not water fish. maybe im wrong. sorry. sorry. sorry so much.

PEOPLE CHANGED

people changed so fast.

you cant believe how fast it is.

same to me.

same to everyone.

i dont know what i want all the time

waiting the people you love 

he treat me like no one.

im kinda upset of that.

but i still cant resist to find him

why?

is this called love?

i really dont want to regret anything

dont want to miss out any right person

but if my heart still love him, 

i dont think i can together with others for a long time.

i should give up?

or standing there and wait for him? 

somehow, i believe, 

miracle will appeared. 

just wanna study well for my final, 

as long as he didnt ignore me,

i am already happy.

i just want to be happy;.

be in a relationship or not,

its not important anymore. 

although sometimes i really feel lonely and wanted someone to care me,

its alright.

i will still pretend to be tough ;)

i really miss us. the way we talked, we laughed. why feeling just fade away like that?

this conversation is the sweetest words i ever see. :'(

i love you . christopher chow ten foong

you are the second one i love that much after lsj. 

i will never forget.